From the first moment we met, he and I were close. I can’t imagine not being close to him. He was Trueheart. I would tease him in private about being a CareBear. I couldn’t get it out of my mind…Funshine, Tenderheart, Trueheart…he was a CareBear. I would laugh because he was so strict in public. He was one of those scary Doms back then. Quiet, elegant, and strong…he did make submissives squeak. They didn’t tease him back then.

I loved him from the very first. And I know he loved me back. He never failed to tell me how much I meant to him.

He saved my life. I’m certain of it. He was always there when I needed someone. He was a calm voice speaking to me on the phone or sending me messages.

And when he met his wench, I was deliriously happy for him. How could I not be? His happiness exuded from him.

Even after that, he (and she) were my guardian angels. They invited me to stay with them more than once. They called to talk me through sadness and pain and despair.

As our lives became more busy, we talked less. But when we did talk, it was like we hadn’t been apart. He would make me laugh and smile. He would send love my way.

He loved me. I can say that. I felt it to the core of my being.

Someone in my life said that he would be afraid to upset me…that Faustus might come after him. Faustus and I laughed about that. While he was my guardian angel, he was also the sweetest man alive.

I will miss him…more than I can possibly say. But I know that he’s still there, watching over so many of us.

I know he is laughing…that wondeful laugh.

closing my eyes, sending a thought to him….

You will always be a part of my heart, my friend…

sending quiet thoughts to His wench and sommer and their families…and slipping out…