I’m way too irritated to be at work today. I know I shouldn’t read my work e-mail from home but there is this stupid thing called RESPONSIBILITY that nags me if I don’t. What if I could have helped avoid a situation? What if I could have helped out just a little more?

I really hate opening e-mail from this one person who always has negative things to say. She is never nice in her e-mails. She’s always accusatory. I’m drawn to them, though. I can’t help but open them (even with dread) the moment I see them.

I opened one on Friday. Ok, I opened 4 of them. *sigh* I shouldn’t have. I was in tears that night. I’ve been full of angst most of the weekend, not wanting to come back to work because I’d have to deal with her crap.

What’s even worse is that I get into work an average of 2-3 hours before the rest of the employees. I get a lot more done at 6 a.m. than I do when people are actually here. So, now I’ve been sitting here for over an hour fretting until my boss gets in and I can talk to him about this situation.

I hate this.

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An addendum:

My boss was totally cool about the issue. He said that it may need to go to the next higher level because this woman has systematically berated, over 2 years, the people in my department. My boss is worried about losing us because of her (he wouldn’t because we all love what we do but she does make it difficult).

I’m relieved. Whew!