Tonight is my weekly weigh-in at Weight Watchers. I look forward to Thursdays because I get to see what kind of progress I’m making towards my ultimate goal of healthy living.

It seems, though, that my co-workers always choose Thursdays to have some kind of brunch, bring in donuts, or something to do with food. I’m a food addict. I truly think I am. If it’s in front of me, I have a hard time saying no. I want to taste it. I love food…I love the textures and tastes.

I pack my own lunches, make my own breakfasts, and try to watch what I eat carefully because I know that I haven’t much willpower when it comes to food.

Today is someone’s birthday so we are taking her out for a brunch. She chose the place to go…thank goodness it’s a local restaurant that is mostly vegetarian (and those of you who know my town know that this town if FULL of granola restaurants like this ;-) )and I can choose foods that will help me more than hurt me.

It’s funny…the more I watch what I eat, the more I notice that even salads can be dangerous foods (those “grilled” meats, lowfat dressings, bread crumbs, and more can be very, very high in calories) to eat while out. A breakfast quesadilla at Carl’s Jr. is lower in points than a breakfast croissant at Burger King…much lower.

My life has become about numbers…points, grams, pounds, amounts. I need that structure, though. I need to control myself in that way to be more healthy. I’m halfway to my goal. I don’t always work as hard as I should nor do I slack off as much as I sometimes want to.

I know that this will help lower my cholesterol and make my asthma affect me less. I know that I will probably live a longer and happier life because of what I’m doing now.

I wish I had the metabolism and weight I had at 25 when I was really thin. I don’t. 10 years has added a lot to me…not only in weight. But I know that I have to take responsibility and give myself my life.

That, in the end, is what it’s all about…me, life, and living.

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I probably won’t be around until Monday or Tuesday. We’re heading up to Lake Powell for a fun weekend of boating. You all play safe out there and have a great weekend!