Thursday February 20, 2003
I’m feeling confined. I feel like I’m confined in this life that I’ve built around me. I’m not confined by my life, just by the things I’ve allowed to happen. I feel restricted. I feel, sometimes, like I can’t say or do the things I’d really like to say or do.
You take the good with the bad, the positive with the negative, the hard with the easy. But I wonder, is there a point when you say enough? How do I determine when that is? How do I know that when I say enough, it won’t be worse? What if the good then gets bad, the positive goes negative, the easy gets hard?
Is life ever just..there? Is it ever not a struggle?
I’m being cryptic, I know. Sometimes I feel like I have no place to be honest and open…even here.
Sometimes I think I should just change my name, my address,and my online personas and start all over again.
Well, I know that in my 41 years, it has always been a struggle. But some days are much harder than others. The key, I think, is to focus on the good things, and not let the bad ones rule you.
That’s my teaspoon full of wisdom for the day. That’ll be $1.79 please.