Archive for August, 2004
on kissing
0I love kissing.
It is one of them most intimate things that two people can do. It connects people in a way that nothing else can.
I like long, languorous, all-consuming kisses. I like soft, sweeping kisses. I like to be carried away on a kiss, to have my breath consumed. I like to taste a person, to drink of him.
I like to touch his face with my hands, reading every curve, every angle of his face. I want to follow my fingertips with my lips, softly, gently tracing the contours with my kisses.
Eventually, my lips find the corner of his mouth and kiss it. I move to his lips. I tug gently on his bottom lip, biting it, tasting it. I kiss him, softly, then a bit more urgently. My tongue parts his lips, his teeth…I taste of him. I take him in, opening him as I open myself.
I drink of him as he drinks of me. Tongues entangle, but don’t battle. Tongues dance the dance of kisses, engaging, enchanting.
A kiss is never just a kiss.
It is so much, much more.
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Love’s Philosophy
Percy Bysshe Shelley
The fountains mingle with the river
And the rivers with the ocean,
The winds of Heaven mix for ever
With a sweet emotion;
Nothing in the world is single,
All things by a law divine
In one spirit meet and mingle -
Why not I with thine?
See the mountains kiss high Heaven
And the waves clasp one another;
No sister-flower would be forgiven
If it disdained its brother;
And the sunlight clasps the earth,
And the moonbeams kiss the sea -
What are all these kissings worth
If thou kiss not me?
more keats
0I’m in an introspective mood today. So, instead of writing, I will leave you with some words from one of my favorite poets, John Keats.
To Some Ladies
Poems (1817)WHAT though while the wonders of nature exploring,
I cannot your light, mazy footsteps attend;
Nor listen to accents, that almost adoring,
Bless Cynthia’s face, the enthusiast’s friend:Yet over the steep, whence the mountain stream rushes,
With you, kindest friends, in idea I rove;
Mark the clear tumbling crystal, its passionate gushes,
Its spray that the wild flower kindly bedews.Why linger you so, the wild labyrinth strolling?
Why breathless, unable your bliss to declare?
Ah! you list to the nightingale’s tender condoling,
Responsive to sylphs, in the moon beamy air.’Tis morn, and the flowers with dew are yet drooping,
I see you are treading the verge of the sea:
And now! ah, I see it – you just now are stooping
To pick up the keep-sake intended for me.If a cherub, on pinions of silver descending,
Had brought me a gem from the fret-work of heaven;
And smiles, with his star-cheering voice sweetly blending,
The blessings of Tighe had melodiously given;I had not created a warmer emotion
Than the present, fair nymphs, I was blest with from you
Than the shell, from the bright golden sands of the ocean
Which the emerald waves at your feet gladly threw.For, indeed, ’tis a sweet and peculiar pleasure,
(And blissful is he who such happiness finds,)
To possess but a span of the hour of leisure,
In elegant, pure, and aerial minds.
Thursday August 26, 2004
0I’m in an introspective mood today. So, instead of writing, I will leave you with some words from one of my favorite poets, John Keats.
To Some Ladies Today, it’s Keats. Just because… When I lived in London, I had the great fortune of being able to visit John Keats’ home in Hampstead. Besides seeing Alice Walker speak and touring the National Gallery, this was one of the most powerful moments of my time spent in that city. I have always loved the poetry of Keats. However, when you step into a person’s house, you feel more. You feel like you may understand him a bit better. He was a tortured soul who died too young. I can only imagine what he would have given to this world had he lived. He took poetry to new levels. Even his letters were poetry. — Woman! when I behold thee flippant, vain WOMAN! when I behold thee flippant, vain, Light feet, dark violet eyes, and parted hair; Ah! who can e’er forget so fair a being? — March 1820 (?) You fear, sometimes, I do not love you so much as you wish? My dear Girl I love you ever and ever and without reserve. The more I have known you the more have I lov’d. In every way – even my jealousies have been agonies of Love, in the hottest fit I ever had I would have died for you. I have vex’d you too much. But for Love! Can I help it? You are always new. The last of your kisses was ever the sweetest; the last smile the brightest; the last movement the gracefullest. When you pass’d my window home yesterday, I was fill’d with as much admiration as if I had then seen you for the first time. You uttered half complaint once that I only lov’d your Beauty. Have I nothing else then to love in you but that? Do not I see a heart naturally furnish’d with wings imprison itself with me? No ill prospect has been able to turn your thoughts a moment from me. This perhaps should be as much a subject of sorrow as of joy – but I will not talk of that. Even if you did not love me I could not help an entire devotion to you: how much more deeply then must I feel for you knowing you love me. My Mind has been the most discontented and restless one that ever was put into a body too small for it. I never felt my Mind repose upon anything with complete and undistracted enjoyment – upon no person but you. When you are in the room my thoughts never fly out of window: you always concentrate my whole senses. The anxiety shown about our Loves in your last note is an immense pleasure to me: however you must not suffer such speculations to molest you any more: nor will I any more believe you can have the least pique against me. Brown is gone out – but here is Mrs Wylie – when she is gone I shall be awake for you. – Remembrances to your Mother. Your affectionate So, if you watch the news, you know that there are some really great hypocrisies happening in the world of politics, in the realm of our esteemed U.S. Attorney General, John Ashcroft, and our beloved Secretary of Defense, Donald Rumsfeld. NPR correspondent Connie Rice put together her Top 10 Taboo things said about Baghdad. I will list one here, just to give you a feel. This time: Top 10 things said about Baghdad that you’ll never hear said about Watts or other U.S. ghettoes… (10.) “Isn’t it great that Iraqis are now free to flood their streets with tens of thousands of protesters in open demonstrations?” You especially won’t hear this one said about Manhattan. John Ashcroft of the U.S. Department of Justice is right now hunting down and interrogating Americans planning to protest the Republican convention in New York City — so I guess the tens of thousands of Republican Convention protesters can march freely in Baghdad, but not Central Park. If you’d like to read more of these truisms (heh…had to use an -ism), go here. So, if you watch the news, you know that there are some really great hypocrisies happening in the world of politics, in the realm of our esteemed U.S. Attorney General, John Ashcroft, and our beloved Secretary of Defense, Donald Rumsfeld. NPR correspondent Connie Rice put together her Top 10 Taboo things said about Baghdad. I will list one here, just to give you a feel. This time: Top 10 things said about Baghdad that you’ll never hear said about Watts or other U.S. ghettoes… (10.) “Isn’t it great that Iraqis are now free to flood their streets with tens of thousands of protesters in open demonstrations?” You especially won’t hear this one said about Manhattan. John Ashcroft of the U.S. Department of Justice is right now hunting down and interrogating Americans planning to protest the Republican convention in New York City — so I guess the tens of thousands of Republican Convention protesters can march freely in Baghdad, but not Central Park. If you’d like to read more of these truisms (heh…had to use an -ism), go here. I’ve been thinking about “-isms” lately (Which, in and of itself, is a bizarre thing to contemplate, don’t you think?). Our lives are ruled by these: conservativism, liberalism, conservationism, environmentalism, atheisim, and on and on. We’ve attached this to almost anything we deal with these days. Webster.com defines -ism as: Main Entry: -ism 1 a : act : practice : process <criticism> <plagiarism> 2 a : state : condition : property <barbarianism> Main Entry: ism Really, by reading the definitions, an -ism can be just about anything. We can attach it anything and it can become a condition, a property, an act, a practice, a theory. Anything in the world can be an -ism. The possibilities are endless. Doesn’t that make your head spin? So, in the grand spirit of sharing the weird happenings in my brain, I will share a few “-ism” websites with you: Glossary of Philosophical Isms Go out, spread your isms. Be free with them. I’ve been thinking about “-isms” lately (Which, in and of itself, is a bizarre thing to contemplate, don’t you think?). Our lives are ruled by these: conservativism, liberalism, conservationism, environmentalism, atheisim, and on and on. We’ve attached this almost anything we deal with these days. Webster.com defines -ism as: Main Entry: -ism Really, by reading the definitions, an -ism can be just about anything. We can attach it anything and it can become a condition, a property, an act, a practice, a theory. Anything in the world can be an -ism. The possibilities are endless. Doesn’t that make your head spin? So, in the grand spirit of sharing the weird happenings in my brain, I will share a few “-ism” websites with you: Glossary of Philosophical Isms Go out, spread your isms. Be free with them. I’ve been reading a lot of poetry lately. I’ve been looking for obscure authors that write on themes that may be a little taboo, a little irreverent. My latest foray into the realm of masochistic poetry brought me to Algernon Charles Swinburne. In his poem, Dolores, the Virgin Mary is portrayed as a dominatrix. In the research I’ve been doing, this theme is not limited to Dolores within Swinburne’s writings. I’ve also discovered that this may have been his rebellion against the Victorian/Catholic attitudes of the time. In any case, here is Dolores. Dolores Cold eyelids that hide like a jewel Seven sorrows the priests give their Virgin; O garment not golden but gilded, O lips full of lust and of laughter, In yesterday’s reach and to-morrow’s, Who gave thee thy wisdom? what stories We shift and bedeck and bedrape us, Fruits fail and love dies and time ranges; Could you hurt me, sweet lips, though I hurt you? There are sins it may be to discover, Ah beautiful passionate body As our kisses relax and redouble, Hast thou told all thy secrets the last time, By the hunger of change and emotion By the ravenous teeth that have smitten Wilt thou smile as a woman disdaining I have passed from the outermost portal All thine the new wine of desire, Ah thy people, thy children, thy chosen, For the crown of our life as it closes And pale from the past we draw nigh thee, The desire of thy furious embraces And they laughed, changing hands in the measure, In a twilight where virtues are vices, Love listens, and paler than ashes, Thou shalt bind his bright eyes though he wrestle, Thou shalt touch and make redder his roses Dost thou dream, in a respite of slumber, When thy lips had such lovers to flatter; On sands by the storm never shaken, There the gladiator, pale for thy pleasure, When, with flame all around him aspirant, Dost thou dream of what was and no more is, As of old when the world’s heart was lighter, Thou wert fair in the fearless old fashion, All shrines that were Vestal are flameless, Thy skin changes country and colour, On thy bosom though many a kiss be, Then still, through dry seasons and moister, In spring he had crowns of his garden, What broke off the garlands that girt you? Cry aloud; for the old world is broken; And the chaplets of old are above us, Out of Dindymus heavily laden She hath wasted with fire thine high places, They shall pass and their places be taken, But the worm shall revive thee with kisses; Did he lie? did he laugh? does he know it, And all came in sight? Who has known all the evil before us, Who are we that embalm and embrace thee Who now shall content thee as they did, Where are they, Cotytto or Venus, They were purple of raiment and golden, What ails us to fear overmeasure, We shall know what the darkness discovers, I have issues with abandonment. It’s not that I was abandoned as a child…not physically, anyway. My parents were always around. Emotionally, however, abandonment began early. I was told that I was too precocious, too smart for my own good. I would be ignored. Silence was used as punishment for everything. To this day, when someone is angry, I fear their silence more than anything. I can take anything but that.It hurts me more than anything else ever will. I don’t understand it, I can’t read it, and I don’t know how to respond to it except to wonder what I’ve done wrong. Silence is golden…but only when it’s a comfortable silence. — The Fury Of Abandonment Someone lives in a cave I know that it is all I’ve been abandoned out here It makes me laugh
Poems (1817)
keats…just because…
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Poems (1817)
Inconstant, childish, proud, and full of fancies;
Without that modest softening that enhances
The downcast eye, repentant of the pain
That its mild light creates to heal again:
E’en then, elate, my spirit leaps, and prances,
E’en then my soul with exultation dances
For that to love, so long, I’ve dormant lain:
But when I see thee meek, and kind, and tender,
Heavens! how desperately do I adore
Thy winning graces; – to be thy defender
I hotly burn – to be a Calidore -
A very Red Cross Knight – a stout Leander -
Might I be loved by thee like these of yore.
Soft dimpled hands, white neck, and creamy breast,
Are things on which the dazzled senses rest
Till the fond, fixed eyes, forget they stare.
From such fine pictures, heavens! I cannot dare
To turn my admiration, though unpossess’d
They be of what is worthy, – though not drest
In lovely modesty, and virtues rare.
Yet these I leave as thoughtless as a lark;
These lures I straight forget – e’en ere I dine,
Or thrice my palate moisten: but when I mark
Such charms with mild intelligences shine,
My ear is open like a greedy shark,
To catch the tunings of a voice divine.
Who can forget her half retiring sweets?
God! she is like a milk-white lamb that bleats
For man’s protection. Surely the All-seeing,
Who joys to see us with his gifts agreeing,
Will never give him pinions, who intreats
Such innocence to ruin, – who vilely cheats
A dove-like bosom. In truth there is no freeing
One’s thoughts from such a beauty; when I hear
A lay that once I saw her hand awake,
Her form seems floating palpable, and near;
Had I e’er seen her from an arbour take
A dewy flower, oft would that hand appear,
And o’er my eyes the trembling moisture shake.
A letter
Sweetest Fanny
J. Keats
Wednesday August 25, 2004
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Function: noun suffix
Etymology: Middle English -isme, from Middle French & Latin; Middle French, partly from Latin -isma (from Greek) & partly from Latin -ismus, from Greek -ismos; Greek -isma & -ismos, from verbs in -izein -ize
b : manner of action or behavior characteristic of a (specified) person or thing <animalism>
c : prejudice or discrimination on the basis of a (specified) attribute <racism> <sexism>
b : abnormal state or condition resulting from excess of a (specified) thing <alcoholism> or marked by resemblance to (such) a person or thing <giantism>
3 a : doctrine : theory : cult <Buddhism>
b : adherence to a system or a class of principles <stoicism>
4 : characteristic or peculiar feature or trait <colloquialism>
Pronunciation: 'i-z&m
Function: noun
Etymology: -ism
: a distinctive doctrine, cause, or theory
Word List: Isms
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Wednesday August 25, 2004
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Function: noun suffix
Etymology: Middle English -isme, from Middle French & Latin; Middle French, partly from Latin -isma (from Greek) & partly from Latin -ismus, from Greek -ismos; Greek -isma & -ismos, from verbs in -izein -ize
1 a : act : practice : process <criticism> <plagiarism> b : manner of action or behavior characteristic of a (specified) person or thing <animalism> c : prejudice or discrimination on the basis of a (specified) attribute <racism> <sexism>
2 a : state : condition : property <barbarianism> b : abnormal state or condition resulting from excess of a (specified) thing <alcoholism> or marked by resemblance to (such) a person or thing <giantism>
3 a : doctrine : theory : cult <Buddhism> b : adherence to a system or a class of principles <stoicism>
4 : characteristic or peculiar feature or trait <colloquialism>
Main Entry: ism
Pronunciation: 'i-z&m
Function: noun
Etymology: -ism
: a distinctive doctrine, cause, or theory ![]()

Word List: Isms
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masochistic poetry
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Algernon Charles Swinburne
Hard eyes that grow soft for an hour;
The heavy white limbs, and the cruel
Red mouth like a venomous flower;
When these are gone by with their glories,
What shall rest of thee then, what remain,
O mystic and sombre Dolores,
Our Lady of Pain?
But thy sins, which are seventy times seven,
Seven ages would fail thee to purge in,
And then they would haunt thee in heaven:
Fierce midnights and famishing morrows,
And the loves that complete and control
All the joys of the flesh, all the sorrows
That wear out the soul.
O garden where all men may dwell,
O tower not of ivory, but builded
By hands that reach heaven from hell;
O mystical rose of the mire,
O house not of gold but of gain,
O house of unquenchable fire,
Our Lady of Pain!
Curled snakes that are fed from my breast,
Bite hard, lest remembrance come after
And press with new lips where you pressed.
For my heart too springs up at the pressure,
Mine eyelids too moisten and burn;
Ah, feed me and fill me with pleasure,
Ere pain come in turn.
Out of sight though they lie of to-day,
There have been and there yet shall be sorrows
That smite not and bite not in play.
The life and the love thou despisest,
These hurt us indeed, and in vain,
O wise among women, and wisest,
Our Lady of Pain.
That stung thee, what visions that smote?
Wert thou pure and a maiden, Dolores,
When desire took thee first by the throat?
What bud was the shell of the blossom
That all men may smell to and pluck?
What milk fed thee first at what bosom?
What sins gave thee suck?
Thou art noble and nude and antique;
Libitina thy mother, Priapus
Thy father, a Tuscan and Greek.
We play with light loves in the portal,
And wince and relent and refrain;
Loves die, and we know thee immortal,
Our Lady of Pain.
Thou art fed with perpetual breath,
And alive after infinite changes,
And fresh from the kisses of death;
Of languours rekindled and rallied,
Of barren delights and unclean,
Things monstrous and fruitless, a pallid
And poisonous queen.
Men touch them, and change in a trice
The lilies and languours of virtue
For the raptures and roses of vice;
Those lie where thy foot on the floor is,
These crown and caress thee and chain,
O splendid and sterile Dolores,
Our Lady of Pain.
There are deeds it may be to delight.
What new work wilt thou find for thy lover,
What new passions for daytime or night?
What spells that they know not a word of
Whose lives are as leaves overblown?
What tortures undreamt of, unheard of,
Unwritten, unknown?
That never has ached with a heart!
On thy mouth though the kisses are bloody,
Though they sting till it shudder and smart,
More kind than the love we adore is,
They hurt not the heart or the brain,
O bitter and tender Dolores,
Our Lady of Pain.
From the lips and the foam and the fangs
Shall no new sin be born for men’s trouble,
No dream of impossible pangs?
With the sweet of the sins of old ages
Wilt thou satiate thy soul as of yore?
Too sweet is the rind, say the sages,
Too bitter the core.
And bared all thy beauties to one?
Ah, where shall we go then for pastime,
If the worst that can be has been done?
But sweet as the rind was the core is;
We are fain of thee still, we are fain,
O sanguine and subtle Dolores,
Our Lady of Pain.
By the thirst of unbearable things,
By despair, the twin-born of devotion
By the pleasure that winces and stings,
The delight that consumes the desire,
The desire that outruns the delight,
By the cruelty deaf as a fire
And blind as the night,
Through the kisses that blossom and bud,
By the lips intertwisted and bitten
Till the foam has a savour of blood,
By the pulse as it rises and falters,
By the hands as they slacken and strain,
I adjure thee, respond from thine altars,
Our Lady of Pain.
The light fire in the veins of a boy?
But he comes to thee sad, without feigning,
Who has wearied of sorrow and joy;
Less careful of labour and glory
Than the elders whose hair has uncurled;
And young, but with fancies as hoary
And grey as the world.
To the shrine where a sin is a prayer;
What care though the service be mortal?
O our Lady of Torture, what care?
All thine the last wine that I pour is,
The last in the chalice we drain,
O fierce and luxurious Dolores,
Our Lady of Pain.
The fruit of four lips as they clung
Till the hair and the eyelids took fire,
The foam of a serpentine tongue,
The froth of the serpents of pleasure,
More salt than the foam of the sea,
Now felt as a flame, now at leisure
As wine shed for me.
Marked cross from the womb and perverse!
They have found out the secret to cozen
The gods that constrain us and curse;
They alone, they are wise, and no other;
Give me place, even me, in their train,
O my sister, my spouse, and my mother,
Our Lady of Pain.
Is darkness, the fruit thereof dust;
No thorns go as deep as a rose’s,
And love is more cruel than lust.
Time turns the old days to derision,
Our loves into corpses or wives;
And marriage and death and division
Make barren our lives.
And satiate with comfortless hours;
And we know thee, how all men belie thee,
And we gather the fruit of thy flowers;
The passion that slays and recovers,
The pangs and the kisses that rain
On the lips and the limbs of thy lovers,
Our Lady of Pain.
Is more than the wisdom of years,
On the blossom though blood lie in traces,
Though the foliage be sodden with tears.
For the lords in whose keeping the door is
That opens to all who draw breath
Gave the cypress to love, my Dolores,
The myrtle to death.
And they mixed and made peace after strife;
Pain melted in tears, and was pleasure;
Death mingled with blood, and was life.
Like lovers they melted and tingled,
In the dusk of thine innermost fane;
In the darkness they murmured and mingled,
Our Lady of Pain.
In thy chapels, unknown of the sun,
To a tune that enthralls and entices,
They were wed, and the twain were as one.
For the tune from thine altar hath sounded
Since God bade the world’s work begin,
And the fume of thine incense abounded,
To sweeten the sin.
Through his curls as the crown on them slips,
Lifts languid wet eyelids and lashes,
And laughs with insatiable lips.
Thou shalt hush him with heavy caresses,
With music that scares the profane;
Thou shalt darken his eyes with thy tresses,
Our Lady of Pain.
Thou shalt chain his light limbs though he strive;
In his lips all thy serpents shall nestle,
In his hands all thy cruelties thrive.
In the daytime thy voice shall go through him,
In his dreams he shall feel thee and ache;
Thou shalt kindle by night and subdue him
Asleep and awake.
With juice not of fruit nor of bud;
When the sense in the spirit reposes,
Thou shalt quicken the soul through the blood.
Thine, thine the one grace we implore is,
Who would live and not languish or feign,
O sleepless and deadly Dolores,
Our Lady of Pain.
In a lull of the fires of thy life,
Of the days without name, without number,
When thy will stung the world into strife;
When, a goddess, the pulse of thy passion
Smote kings as they revelled in Rome;
And they hailed thee re-risen, O Thalassian,
Foam-white, from the foam?
When the city lay red from thy rods,
And thine hands were as arrows to scatter
The children of change and their gods;
When the blood of thy foemen made fervent
A sand never moist from the main,
As one smote thm, their lord and thy servant,
Our Lady of Pain.
Nor wet from the washing of tides;
Nor by foam of the waves overtaken,
Nor winds that the thunder bestrides;
But red from the print of thy paces,
Made smooth for the world and its lords,
Ringed round with a flame of fair faces,
And splendid with swords.
Drew bitter and perilous breath;
There torments laid hold on the treasure
Of limbs too delicious for death;
When the gardens were lit with live torches;
When the world was a steed for thy rein;
When the nations lay prone in thy porches,
Our Lady of Pain.
Stood flushed, as a harp-player stands,
The implacable beautiful tyrant,
Rose-crowned, having death in his hands;
And a sound as the sound of loud water
Smote far through the flight of the fires,
And mixed with the lightning of slaughter
A thunder of lyres.
The old kingdoms of earth and the kings?
Dost thou hunger for these things, Dolores,
For these, in a new world of things?
But thy bosom no fasts could emaciate,
No hunger compel to complain
Those lips that no bloodshed could satiate,
Our Lady of Pain.
Through thy garments the grace of thee glows,
The white wealth of thy body made whiter
By the blushes of amorous blows,
And seamed with sharp lips and fierce fingers,
And branded by kisses that bruise;
When all shall be gone that now lingers,
Ah, what shall we lose?
And thy limbs are as melodies yet,
And move to the music of passion,
With lithe and lascivious regret.
What ailed us, O gods, to desert you
For creeds that refuse and restrain?
Come down and redeem us from virtue,
Our Lady of Pain.
But the flame has not fallen from this;
Though obscure be the god, and though nameless
The eyes and the hair that we kiss;
Low fires that love sits by and forges
Fresh heads for his arrows and thine;
Hair loosened and soiled in mid orgies
With kisses and wine.
And shrivels or swells to a snake’s.
Let it brighten and bloat and grow duller,
We know it, the flames and the flakes,
Red brands on it smitten and bitten,
Round skies where a star is a stain,
And the leaves with thy litanies written,
Our Lady of Pain.
There are none such as knew it of old.
Was it Alciphron once or Arisbe,
Male ringlets or feminine gold,
That thy lips met with under the statue,
Whence a look shot out sharp after thieves
From the eyes of the garden-god at you
Across the fig-leaves?
One god had a wreath to his shrine;
Then love was the pearl of his oyster,
And Venus rose red out of wine,
We have all done amiss, choosing rather
Such loves as the wise gods disdain;
Intercede for us thou with thy father,
Our Lady of Pain.
Red corn in the heat of the year,
Then hoary green olives that harden
When the grape-blossom freezes with fear;
And milk-budded myrtles with Venus
And vine-leaves with Bacchus he trod;
And ye said, “We have seen, he hath seen us,
A visible God.”
What sundered you spirit and clay?
Weak sins yet alive are as virtue
To the strength of the sins of that day.
For dried is the blood of thy lover,
Ipsithilla, contracted the vein;
Cry aloud, “Will he rise and recover,
Our Lady of Pain?”
Cry out; for the Phrygian is priest,
And rears not the bountiful token
And spreads not the fatherly feast.
From the midmost of Ida, from shady
Recesses that murmur at morn,
They have brought and baptized her, Our Lady,
A goddess new-born.
And the oyster-bed teems out of reach;
Old poets outsing and outlove us,
And Catullus makes mouths at our speech.
Who shall kiss, in thy father’s own city,
With such lips as he sang with, again?
Intercede for us all of thy pity,
Our Lady of Pain.
Her lions draw bound and unfed
A mother, a mortal, a maiden,
A queen over death and the dead.
She is cold, and her habit is lowly,
Her temple of branches and sods;
Most fruitful and virginal, holy,
A mother of gods.
She hath hidden and marred and made sad
The fair limbs of the Loves, the fair faces
Of gods that were goodly and glad.
She slays, and her hands are not bloody;
She moves as a moon in the wane,
White-robed, and thy raiment is ruddy,
Our Lady of Pain.
The gods and the priests that are pure,
They shall pass, and shalt thou not be shaken?
They shall perish, and shalt thou endure?
Death laughs, breathing close and relentless
In the nostrils and eyelids of lust,
With a pinch in his fingers of scentless
And delicate dust.
Thou shalt change and transmute as a god,
As the rod to a serpent that hisses,
And the serpent again to a rod.
Thy life shall not cease though thou doff it;
Thou shalt live until evil be slain,
And the good shall die first, said thy prophet,
Our Lady of Pain.
Now he lies out of reach, out of breath,
Thy prophet, thy preacher, thy poet,
Sin’s child by incestuous Death?
Did he find out in fire at his waking,
Or discern as his eyelids lost light,#
When the bands of his body were breaking
Or the tyrannous secrets of time?
Though we match not the dead men that bore us
At a song, at a kiss, at a crime -
Though the heathen outface and outlive us,
And our lives and our longings are twain -
Ah, forgive us our virtues, forgive us,
Our Lady of Pain.
With spices and savours of song?
What is time, that his children should face thee?
What am I, that my lips do thee wrong?
I could hurt thee – but pain would delight thee;
Or caress thee – but love would repel;
And the lovers whose lips would excite thee
Are serpents in hell.
Thy lovers, when temples were built
And the hair of the sacrifice braided
And the blood of the sacrifice spilt,
In Lampsacus fervent with faces,
In Aphaca red from thy reign,
Who embraced thee with awful embraces,
Our Lady of Pain?
Astarte or Ashtaroth, where?
Do their hands as we touch come between us?
Is the breath of them hot in thy hair?
From their lips have thy lips taken fever,
With the blood of their bodies grown red?
Hast thou left upon earth a believer
If these men are dead?
Filled full of thee, fiery with wine,
Thy lovers, in haunts unbeholden,
In marvellous chambers of thine.
They are fled, and their footprints escape us,
Who appraise thee, adore, and abstain,
O daughter of Death and Priapus,
Our Lady of Pain.
To praise thee with timorous breath,
O mistress and mother of pleasure,
The one thing as certain as death?
We shall change as the things that we cherish,
Shall fade as they faded before,
As foam upon water shall perish,
As sand upon shore.
If the grave-pit be shallow or deep;
And our fathers of old, and our lovers,
We shall know if they sleep not or sleep.
We shall see whether hell be not heaven,
Find out whether tares be not grain,
And the joys of the seventy times seven,
Our Lady of Pain.
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Anne Sexton
eating his toes,
I know that much.
Someone little lives under a bush
pressing an empty Coca-Cola can against
his starving bloated stomac,
I know that much.
A monkey had his hands cut off
for a medical experiment
and his claws wept.
I know tht much.
a matter of hands.
Out of the mournful sweetness of touching
comes love
like breakfast.
Out of the many houses come the hands
before the abandonment of the city,
out of hte bars and shops,
a thin file of ants.
under the dry stars
with no shoes, no belt
and I’ve called Rescue Inc. -
that old-fashioned hot line -
no voice.
Left to my own lips, touch them,
my own nostrils, shoulders, breasts,
navel, stomach, mound, kneebone, ankle,
touch them.
to see a woman in this condition.
It makes me laugh for America and New York city
when your hands are cut off
and no one answers the phone.