freedom
“Where there is love there is life.”
– Mohandas Karamchand Gandhi (1869-1948), [Mahatma]
I’m one of those fortunate people who is blessed with siblings that are amazing and supportive and my best friends.
When we were younger, my brother, Todd, and I fought constantly. We were the closest in age and we were rivals. I was the goody-two-shoes. I got the straight A’s. I was the over-achiever. Todd had the unfortunate act of being born after me. To get the attention, he did the bad things. He would
rebel at every turn.
I hate that we didn’t understand that back then. I hate that we both suffered because we had to vie for attention in ways that children shouldn’t have to.
We didn’t really talk a lot in our teens. We both had very separate lives.
When I got into my 20s, Todd was my hero. When I hurt, he was there to pick me up. When I needed rescuing, HE was my white knight. He saved me more than once.
I think he saved me from myself a few times.
In my mid-20s, I moved to Boulder, Colorado. One day, out of the blue, I got a letter from Todd. In this letter, he told me that he regretted that we hadn’t had a perfect relationship but that he wanted me to know that he loved me and that he would always be there for me.
I cried that day. No one had ever said that to me and meant it. I knew he did.
He hasn’t broken that promise. He has been here for me. He makes sure that I’m not alone on holidays. He makes sure to call me a few times a week just to talk, just to stay in touch.
He’s still my hero.