If I lived during Victorian times, I think a doctor would say I have a case of malaise.  Then again, I may be misdiagnosing myself.

There is an extreme amount of apathy in my blood system these days, especially when it comes to work.  Some really distasteful things have been happening at work and I’ve tried not to let them boil over into the rest of my life but they’ve just left me sad, feeling pretty much alone, and in a general state of despair.  I don’t know where to even begin.

I’ve decided, though, that I can’t do anything about other people.  I can only control myself and I vow to keep on keepin’ on, as the saying goes.  Can’t do much else.  If I didn’t do that, I’d lose everything important to me.

I have a goal to keep in mind:  in one year, I will be going to graduate school and the entire shape of my life will be changing.

I’m going to apply to 3 or 4 schools:  Northern Arizona University (my hometown school), UW-Madison (Madison, WI), University of Georgia (Atlanta), and Boston University.  They all have wonderful programs in Applied Linguistics.

At this point, I am just trying to get to next year.  It’s that hope that keeps me going.