I think I’m socially inept.  I have trouble talking to people unless I know them well and I say the most stupid and inane things.

I joined one of those online dating sites.  I figured that it’s hard for me to meet people because I work so much and go to school (and the only people at school are usually either 10-15 years younger than me or my professors…heh).

So, I went out on a date on Saturday.  It was nice.  While I think there was a connection, the person is moving to California at the end of the week so there is no chance for it to go anywhere.  It’s disappointing but it is what it is, I suppose.

I was a dork on the date.  I fluttered.  My hands fluttered.  I’m terribly shy in those kinds of situations and I acted stupid.

I’m embarrassed by that. 

It starts to make me wonder if there is hope.  I wonder if I’ll be able to overcome my social phobias to actually meet a nice guy that is meant for me.