I think I’m socially inept. I have trouble talking to people unless I know them well and I say the most stupid and inane things.

I joined one of those online dating sites. I figured that it’s hard for me to meet people because I work so much and go to school (and the only people at school are usually either 10-15 years younger than me or my professors…heh).

So, I went out on a date on Saturday. It was nice. While I think there was a connection, the person is moving to California at the end of the week so there is no chance for it to go anywhere. It’s disappointing but it is what it is, I suppose.

I was a dork on the date. I fluttered. My hands fluttered. I’m terribly shy in those kinds of situations and I acted stupid.

I’m embarrassed by that.

It starts to make me wonder if there is hope. I wonder if I’ll be able to overcome my social phobias to actually meet a nice guy that is meant for me.