doctoral candidate in rhetoric and scientific and technical communication
Archive for February, 2005
word of the day
06 years ago
by dawn
in word of the day
quiescent
adjective ~ *1. marked by inactivity or repose: tranquility at rest; 2. causing no trouble or symptoms
*The storm was over and the quiescent waters betrayed no sign of yesterday’s turbulence.
Merriam-Webster’s 365 New Words Calendar, www.pageaday.com, Workman Publishing
quote of the day
06 years ago
by dawn
in quote of the day
If you were all alone in the universe with no one to talk to,
no one with which to share the beauty of the stars,
to laugh with, to touch, what would be your purpose in life?
It is other life, it is love, which gives your life meaning.
This is harmony.
We must discover the joy of each other, the joy of challenge, the joy of growth.
~Mistsugi Saotome
word of the day
06 years ago
by dawn
in word of the day
dearth
noun ~ 1. scarcity that makes dear; specfically: famine; *2. an inadequate supply: lack
*Because of a dearth of qualified teachers in the school systems, class sizes this year are larger than those of last year.
Merriam-Webster’s 365 New Words Calendar, www.pageaday.com, Workman Publishing
fleeing
0I don’t have a problem with commitment. I have a problem with commitment when I feel someone pull away from me.
It seems that the minute that a relationship feels like it’s going south (to me), I tend to start to withdraw. The blinds come down, the heart pulls out, the mind closes to that type of a relationship.
Oh, I can be the best of friends to that person but once that process starts, it’s hard for me to reverse the motion…even if I want to.
I know it’s a defense mechanism. It’s to stop me from hurting more or from pursuing someone who probably doesn’t want me around anyway.
Usually the “flee” mentality has been good for me because the other person really had withdrawn in an effort to not have a relationship anymore. It has only had adverse effects once. I was dating someone who withdrew from me. I pulled back. He eventually (after about a month) came back and wanted to go even further with our commitment but at that point, I was past the relationship. I think, though, that I was right in doing so because the relationship wasn’t good for me anyway.
I worry, though, that what may appear to me as withdrawing is actually someone’s need to assess what is going on in life and then I may miss out. I worry that, in the future, I may not make as good of choices with this.
I don’t like shutting down like that, either. I don’t like that I can just cut everything off and it’s over. Done. No looking back.
I’m not sure it’s fair to the other person in the relationship.
I’m not sure it’s fair to me.
But I don’t know how to stop it once it’s in process.
word of the day
07 years ago
by dawn
in word of the day
abecedarian
adjective ~ 1a. of or relating to the alphabet; *b. alphabetically arranged; 2. rudimentary
*I always use that reference book because its abecedarian organization makes it easy to find what I need.
Merriam-Webster’s 365 New Words Calendar, www.pageaday.com, Workman Publishing
wild horses
0That crazed part of me reared its ugly head again yesterday. I spent hours yesterday morning just crying because of the things I had allowed my head to explode with and to take over.
I get that way.
I hate it.
I hate that I seem to have no control over it and my thoughts just go wild and then it affects my entire day and my entire emotional stability.
I hate that I feel the most alone at those points and no where to turn.
I hate that I’m scared.
miscellany
07 years ago
by dawn
in just a thought
I have had to add nearly 30 words to my “restricted” list to force the blog spammers to be moderated in comments. Otherwise, the few of you who actually read and comment here would be buried beneath tons of posts about poker, phentermine, and now, magazine subscriptions. So, if your comment doesn’t pop up right away, never fear. I will approve it if you happen to have one of the restricted words in your comment.
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One of my photos is featured on the Windscreen website. It’s just a fun thing and now you know what I’m doing while I drive. No cell phone for me…oh, no…I have a camera! Eek!
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Today is the Super Bowl. I’m not particularly a football fan. I love sports but football has never been one of those sports I’ve really paid any attention to and I think that’s because it was always such a big deal in school. That irritated me. There seemed to be so many other activities that deserved as much attention but they would lose funding and/or interest because they weren’t promoted as much or as well as football.
Anyway…today is the Super Bowl and I won a ticket to a premier party here in town from a local radio station. There is free food and I have the opportunity to win cash prizes. One of my friends is going also so we’re going to meet up previous to that party and then head over together. It’s at a nice hotel and their food is always good.
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I want to learn to crochet. I’ve tried teaching myself. I even took two classes at my local Michael’s. I can’t get it down.
I want to learn because it’s something that the women in my family have been doing for generations. My great-grandmother crocheted an afghan for me when I was born (but I’ve never been allowed to actually have that afghan because it was claimed by my mother). My grandmother crocheted when she could. Even my own mother and her sisters crocheted. I don’t want it to be a lost art that misses my generation.
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I’ve never had the biological clock ticking that I hear so much about…except that lately, I wonder what it would be like to have a baby.
I’d just like to be in a stable long-term relationship first.
It’s not even about me having the baby. I would happily adopt. There are plenty of babies out there that need a good home.
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I’m lost in my thoughts today. I’m trying to figure out what it is that I want and need in life and if the path I’m on will provide those things.
I’m not sure.
i am…
0I found this on Dana’s site and it made me wonder…so, of course, I had to try it.
You are DNA. You’re a smart person, and you appear
incredibly complex to people who don’t know
you. You’re incomparably full of information,
and most of it is useless.
Which Biological Molecule Are You?
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word of the day
07 years ago
by dawn
in word of the day
sanguine
adjective ~ 1. ruddy; 2. cheerful, hopeful; *3. confident, optimistic
*After today’s game, the coach insisted that he was sanguine about his team’s chances in the playoffs even though his biggest scorer was injured.
Did you know? –> If you’re the sort of cheery soul who always looks on the bright side no matter what happens, you have a sanguine personality. “Sanguine” describes one of the temperaments that ancient and medieval scholars believed was caused by an abundance of one of the four humors (as does “phlegmatic,” an adjective for another complexion once thought to be humor-induced). The word “sanguine” derives from sanguineus, Latin for “blood” or “bloody,” and it has been used since the 14th century to describe things related to blood (often in color) or the sort of cheerful disposition and ruddy complexion the ancients associated with a predominance of the humor blood.
Merriam-Webster’s 365 New Words Calendar, www.pageaday.com, Workman Publishing
fear
0When I’m in a relationship, I give everything. I will give my partner the world, if he wants it. I will bend over backwards to make sure he is happy.
I love being in a relationship. I’m at my best when I’m in one. I’m the happiest when I’m in one.
I’m hitting a roadblock right now. I’m hitting a huge wall that has me spinning.
I have lived life in fear. I wonder if me giving the world is a part of that fear. I wonder if it’s a way to keep a person tied to me. If I give myself, gifts, time, etc. to someone, does that make them feel beholden to me, to feel that they must also give back to me?
And when that person doesn’t feel that way, isn’t ready to be monogamous, should I continue to give all of this? Is it good for me? Is it my fear of not being important to that person that makes me do this or do I do it altruistically? Do I do it to pull that person closer to me or do I do it simply because it makes me happy to make that person happy?
I’m not sure. I’m trying to sort that out.
I know that I’m a giving person. I know that I’m happy being a giving person.
I also know, though, that if that person isn’t able to give back to me…not monetarily but usually emotionally because that’s what really spurs me on…then I know I start to feel lesser than. I know that I feel like I’m just not important or desireable.
Can I be in a relationship where both people aren’t giving to one another equally? Can I be in a relationship where I am dedicated to that one person but he’s not necessarily dedicated to me as completely?
I don’t know.