Whe I first began the “personals” trek, I used The Heart is a Lonely Hunter for my tagline. It comes from the book of the same name by Carson McCullers. I love the imagery of those particular words when strung together. It makes me think that once the heart has captured its prey, it is no longer lonely. Only in the hunting, is the heart lonely.

However, I don’t always feel my heart is lonely. It’s just missing something really important.

I think that sometimes people search their entire lives for that kind of love that is exactly right for them. Sometimes, if you are fortunate, it lands in your lap while you’re not looking.

Both of my brothers found the latter. My two sisters-in-law came into their lives when they weren’t looking. They found their best friends, their confidantes, their lovers.

I think that is so rare. I listen to people talk about their partners and they don’t speak of them in the same ways I hear my brothers talk. My youngest brother often tells me that he can’t wait to get home to spend time with his wife and two kids. His life does not center around work. His work pays the bills to allow him to center his life around his family. I love to see him with his family (heck, I just like being with all of them. It’s like a giant lovefest where you can feel the love they have for one another the minute you walk in the door).

My other brother makes my heart melt when he talks about his wife. He would go to the ends of the earth for her. He would do anything for her.

I think that’s what I look for in a LTR. I want to be excited to go home to see him. I want to be excited waiting for him to come home.

I think that when you’re engaged ina D/s relationship, it’s even more exaggerated because there is this connection that is different. It is incredibly deep. It is strong. It has been built on trust and respect and, hopefully, love for one another.

That’s what I want.

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It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; What is essential is invisible to the eye.
~ Antoine de Saint Exupery ~