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I think I try too hard. I want to be liked by people so much sometimes that I try too hard.

Or, worse, I want to be part of a group of people so badly that I will try too hard.

There is this group online that I am, obstensibly, a member of and I’m supposedly someone that others are supposed to turn to for help. However, the people that I am supposed to turn to for help never respond to me.

I’m stuck in this center space and I’m not sure what to do.

I start to question myself. Did I push my way in? Am I good enough to be a part of the group? Are they ignoring me? Do they not want me there?

I hate that. I really do.

I hate questioning myself so much.

I have to quit living in my head too much.