doctoral candidate in rhetoric and scientific and technical communication
a new adventure
As if I didn’t have enough going on in my life, I’ve decided to follow in Willow’s footsteps. Yep, you heard me right, I’m following in my six-year-old niece’s footsteps.
I am going to start Tae Kwon Do classes tonight.
I know it doesn’t sound like a big deal but let me give you a little information.
I’m not really a joiner. I don’t join groups. Even when co-workers invite me to parties and/or dinner or drinks, I rarely go. I am not much of a crowd person. It’s far more stressful for me to go to those kinds of events than it is to just avoid them.
Now I’m not only joining something but I’m risking the fact that I will most probably look stupid for a while. I hate looking stupid almost more than I hate being a part of groups.
Top it off with the point that my niece, love her as I may, is a yellow belt with a black stripe and she is not shy about telling me when I’m doing things wrong. I will be that beginning white belt. She is delighted that she is so far ahead of me. Delighted.
I’m wondering if I secretly like public humiliation.
go fo it. i hate crowds. i just wrote those exact words to someone trying to get out of going to a movie. yup, a movie. i’ve not been in a movie theatre in almost 10 years. i won’t go to concerts anymore unless they’re at the tiny performing arts center. like you feel about smelling cigarettes, i feel about women who douse themselves in cheap cologne. the combined stench gives me a ripping headache.
i got over feeling stupid in front of people. since i always feel like an idiot, i just accepted it and figure lots of people look stupider… and those who won’t even try are the real losers.
honestly, i see nothing but good things coming from your leap. and with Willow along running the show, you’re sure to have lots of laughs along the way. i don’t know where you find the energy; more power to you.
sadie